I don't think you love me as much as you think you do
Maybe I don't either
What if we're both just wasting time
Trying to heal from our broken past
In the arms of someone who understands the pain
But doesn't have the capacity to love

Maybe you're blinded by my decency
How I don't mistreat you like the others did
Maybe you miss the chaos and destruction
That those cheap ***** offered for a minute
Before it hurt

I'm all for exploring feelings
We can take a break
And you can leave
I want you to be happy
And understand what you feel
Maybe you've already reached out to him
Maybe you just want to see if that spark is still there
But if you **** him
Don't expect me back

What's better,
If you do,
I know he'll leave his clothes on
And leave you feeling alone
I hope you think about our skin touching
How carefully I tend to your body
How **** you think my tattoo is
When all you see on him is coarse denim and ragged cotton
Because I won't be there to catch you again
If you **** him,
Don't expect me back

Why am I so angry?
You haven't left yet
But I feel in my soul that you will
"Soulmates" you call us
Then why even consider him?
That's not fair to ask
I know love isn't that easy
But if you loved me more than you loved him
I don't think you'd leave

What do I do in the meantime?
Sit here and pretend like it's ok?
Like I'm not ****** that you might leave?
At least I know I'll be fine if you do
Whether with or without you
I know I can thrive
Can you say the same?

Do you convince yourself you love me
Because I make your life easier?
Because I promised I won't leave?
Because I don't yell at you like he did?
Because I genuinely care about your wellbeing
Enough to let you leave me to figure it out yourself?

But I do have standards
I am not a cloth that you can just throw away
When you feel you don't need it anymore
But try to grab it again when you do

I am a human being
With real feelings
Like yours
(Not the ones for me though)
You're an adult and you can make your own choices
Take responsibility for yourself and your actions
But if you **** him
Don't expect me back