The hollow in my chest expands
with every shallow giggle
with a moderately funny punchline.

The hole where my deep breaths do not reach
becomes harder to feel reflection of air in,
every time I remember you
and realise something I feel in the marrow of my bones.

I can memorise every centimetre of your face
keep myself busy for 10 hours
and sleep for 8
I can hang myself in textbooks for centuries
but there will never be a portal to a world that I am with you.

Forget dying for you,
I sm living every torturous, second, hour, minute
for you;
the fact remains -
I will never see you again.

zh(28/19/16)