you laugh
when she says that the world ends every other day
bitterly
longing
"i wish"

she says nothing
paint drips down her lips

you wanna say that
you are drowning dying someone save me im drowning
drowning
drown
ing

but instead you
let the fish swim in your lungs
harden your heart into a bright reef
spit up water, choke
say "i'm kidding"
"i'm joking, okay?"
"don't worry so much"

she sighs
does that a lot these days
like she knows
something
you don't