I’m so afraid to transform Away from what I know Or what I think I know Into something I don’t Something foreign I must protect That for which is known And has been known For if I choose to dive in If I choose to go where my body says yes but my mind says no Who will I be?
Surely not who I think I am So then why the distress? Why the anxiety? Mind aka the hesitation Surely knows me best But I know it doesn’t So behind the mind I am Feeling the hesitancy …So the hesi isn’t me
I already am And I have no definition I cannot be defined Because who I am isn’t known It can’t be written down It can’t be explained There aren’t words Because I can transform I can shift My reality alters into what intrigues my mind and thus my body needs So holding onto a definition of me doesn’t make sense *** it’s only 1 definition In the midst of multiple definitions It’s open ended My definitions continue to come to fruition I am the seed Sprouting into the fruit Becoming a tree Becoming what it desires to become There is no definition To what I am For I am what feels right to become And what feels right has no label No, those don’t feel right Because labels mean definition And I can’t be defined I have physical characteristics I have thoughts I have morals But I have no definition I can’t be defined Only refined And I will re-find out my definition every time I allow myself to transform n fruition That’s how I am then defined Not by my past, ego-defined definition of myself But by each step forward past that definition I am re defined And I grow And I continue to grow So my consciousness rises and rises far above my head for which it currently resides Or hides Or desires to get out of but is held back by that initial definition of myself
But who am I? I can’t be defined I can’t be explained Well I can But only by the most recent medium of growth I so choose to allow happen So technically my definition is everything up to the present moment We stay ahead of our definitions It’s behind us Holding us up Like a wall To fall back on if we need But also to block us from creating a larger definition, a stronger wall Yet it’s not really blocking us because it’s behind us
---The same thing that props us up is the same thing we choose to put in front of us and thus imaginarily holds us back---
There is nothing blocking us from going forward It’s an open canvas Blank space to create The definition continues Your wall gets stronger It doesn’t stop at a certain point …Well it can If you let it …But that means you stopped experiencing You stopped experimenting You stopped growing And you can now be ultimately defined Your chapter is over You’ve become a word Something with a definitive answer Strictly defined Easy to remember A flash card of sorts Easily memorized Boring Done
Don’t be done Don’t become a word Written over and done with Tucked away Redefine your definition So you’re never done You can never be written about and clearly defined Until you physically are no longer here Then when you are done here Your definition is so long Your definition is so hard to describe You are no longer a word But you are the dictionary
They will try to make you a word Try to put you in a box This is who you are And if they know who you are They can manipulate you They can set laws to keep you you They can create boundaries status quo’s and social norms to keep you you Because the external world will change, and if you remain static, fixed within, if you remain in definition, you will stay inside the box for which the greater powers have created *** when we are internally bound by definition, we too are bound by the definitions of society And we can no longer enjoy the game We succumb to the game We succumb to the rules set on us And when we succumb We are controlled We are no longer free
So do not succumb Don’t be complacent You are not bound You cannot be defined Only redefined
Make them upset Make them struggle *** while they waste their time trying to define You continue to redefine And you stay ahead of the game While the pons are chasing Trying to keep up *** now you’re not just playing the game, you’re winning