My heart still lunges down below
I scream for it to let me go
When I think of what we never had
You were hot then cold, it was quite mad
And all I can do  now is mourn a ghost
Whose icy hands reached down my throat
You cut me off before you ever let me in
And to think  I would have commited your sin
I tried to save your soul, preserve your mind
And leave all that ***** space behind
To bring you back to my world
and embrace you in my tiny pearl
But all I have left is what I always ever had
nothing - just space , so gut wrenching sad