Electric spark seething, gas stove leaking, dial emergency hotline, radio silence, hang up, I'm fine. We have take-off. Confined at the exhaustive edge of a panic attack, I trail the menstrually-stained duvet I bought for us at Ikea behind my trembling heels as I arrive to stand over you in the living room and watch you sleep on the International Orange love seat your mother gave us when we moved in together. It hurts to think you loved and lusted before our universe came to be, the flame lit under my lungs reigning supreme over the way you look at me every day, if only for a moment. I turn off the harsh florescents casting unfriendly shadows from the back of my head and revolve innumerable times as I lie helpless in your pull, a gravitational force luring me to softly run my fingertips across the nape of your neck, where the hair I helped shave off last week is beginning to sprout up again, bristling. I drop to my knees, dumbfounded by the duality of this moment, our togetherness permeated by an occasional snore indicating that you still sleep in peace while I agonize that you would ever stop loving me, the NASA documentary we watched before you dozed off overriding our perfect display of domestic tranquility with