I could starve
But I eat instead.
That is said to be a good thing;
It's important; it's - I'm (supposed to be) worth it;
I hear some people call it recovery.
Secretly all I'm doing is laughing,
But there are other people to be thought of
Who care about this more than me.
That's one of the reasons why I just shut it up and eat,
Because anyway for me
It's easier to do that
Than starve or purge consistently.

I couldn't ever 'recover' anyway,
I have no problem
Because they told me I only
Have eating problems.
That angered me,
No it's fine, because it still rips at me.
You wanna see me be fine?
I'll show you if I continue,
But I couldn't because people were keeping me,
Good girl Chloe
And I still want to be.
That's why it felt so wrong,
But now it's more like nothing
Although it happens less
As I get less chances.