i live in a small clutch where people seem to think in a discordant chorus where beauty and eloquence are lost to small talk muling monkeys and mute turnips
am i an old man i feel like a bird in a forest of dogs i am my own ancestor haunted by the intimate sufferings of the autumn years
i find my self a teacher a child a satyr in a temporal crisis shifting my bones feeling hollow thinking i want to finish more then i want to continue
it is my love ofย beauty and the exotic that keeps me vital as i age i learn the secrets of time it's insults to the body Gods replacement for the unending labors of mid life and the lies and cruelty of youth
i ask myself can i choke the haunting of age to come was i born for a certain life that never existed is memory an illusion
i look forward to a new life the one i can't remember and had before i was born