Being alone is nice sometimes, but it can be very lonely too. Seeing all the fun that they can have doing things you can no longer do.
It feels like God is picking on me, saying "Haha look at you! I'm going to give you the grandest dreams but you'll be gone by 32."
I try to talk to the people around although it seems that they don't understand. I can't really do all the things I would like, but i'm trying the best that I can.
I used to find pleasure in the simple things, like a beer and a bask in the sun. The era of joy and stars in my eyes it seems is finally done.
So please reserve your judgements until you can feel what I feel inside. Don't tell me how to spend my time when it's a pain to be alive.
I've been trying to find a way to live while also struggling to survive. So ******* until you've died and come back to life before you could even drive.
And when I decide it's my time to go, you can bet I won't be sober. I bought the ticket, I took the ride, but now Football Season Is Over.