Oh, you enjoy being with me. You enjoy kissing me. You enjoy having me at your side. You enjoy playing the games that lovers play. Perhaps you love me. But you don't really need me, do you? What I mean is you don't lie awake at night thinking of me you don't leave your homework unfinished because your mind is tormented by the thought of Lucius you don't go to sleep at night wishing my arms were around you.
You have your friends. You have your home. You have your mother and your father. You've never been really lonely. You've never really suffered. You've never wanted to drive your car off a cliff or put a bullet through your head. You've never ached with all your heart. You've never wanted anyone completely and forever.
But don't feel bad. It's not your fault. I should have known.
Hear Lucius/Jerry read the poem: humanist-art.org/old-site/audio/SoF_046_known.MP3 . This poem is part of the Scraps of Faith collection of poems ( https://humanist-art.org/scrapsoffaith.htm )