Some weeks after they shot my father in the face and my mother in her stomach, I could feel the joints of my bones, the ***** popping in the loose sockets, all pain, like the ****** of nails, their rusting in friction. The same anorexia could be seen on the scrawny gait of our dog that had already forgotten the taste of fish heads my father grilled on coconut charcoal, my mother stewed in vinegar or I deep-fried to crisp. Gray, his foreign name, barked before dashing out towards the avocado tree not yet in season, a collision between a hardwood and a skull, his body on the ground, the dimming gaze a quiet begging, his nod letting me live.