Enough. I am done.
I have no dogs in heaven. Nor one of the Prince’s cockatoos
to leverage favor from. I am the ****** on a cactus.
I have no more
languages to speak truth, but draw blood.
I am a coward,
My tongue not so sharp as a sword.
Remain still. Courage not so stiff as it once was.
Everybody inside. On their heels. There is panic
Breaking on the back of soundless numerals. Is it safe
To beg for mercy in the streets?
O mercy. The ever-redemptive lack.
And what words at my mercy not co-opted
by avarice, or Sig and his ivy-eyed nephew.
Too easy to franchise martyrdom these days, minute 2 minute
Things swing as usual ah um
Sssome people get rebellion-medallions; most pawn them
in tomorrow’s liquor stores.
O merci, Satyrs of a newly profitable goat-song!
Who can resist them teasing out the milk?
It almost seems fresh, piped thru
loudspeakers in Bentham’s skull
Howling ah, Um, Imagine:
Most deformed Society members . . .
Strapped to their rocketships, mingling w/ stars
in corporate menagerie,
Senators and a gaggle of catamites. . .
Young-things, playthings, old news; money is eternal.
Their’s is a sickness that makes mine worse.
That said. I ain’t got a clue; or a word
to say. Without a code to program the spleen
in my bomb of a heart.
All communication is shrapnel-blasted-out-shrapnel.
Grinning over a screen.
No, Worry, slow down. Spleen, relax.
I’m just a man with a telephone wire
Not the sax-playing Mr. Apollinax
Sure can’t talk politic but ah um I can start a fire.
My robe swinging open,
I hang over the balconies of twilight’s regret,
exposed, and unhappy.
I wish nothing more , that the boon of despair
Drop it, an atom bomb and burst the windows. . . .
Everybody inside, solitary: radiated by me.
Maybe we’d all smile at each other
when we finally come out from our houses.