There's tears in my eyes, dripping down my face. "What's wrong?" I don't know. But they won't stop. Down my cheeks, they drip off my chin. "Why are you crying?" I don't know. But it hurts. It hurts so much. I'm suffocating. "What hurts?" I don't know. But it's inside. Deep deep inside, I think it's my heart. "What's wrong?" I don't know! It hurts so bad, and I don't know why! I can't breathe! "Is there anything..."* I... I just... I just want it to stop. They fall like the rain, almost as if the clouds are inside me. Yes. The clouds... They fall from the grey clouds, the ones that hurt... The ones that suffocate me... Maybe.... Maybe if I removed the clouds, I could breathe again. Maybe.... If.... I...
The earliest memory I have of being almost suicidal... All I wanted was to remove the clouds.