I'm not supposed to miss you.
So they say.
But I think of you
Almost everyday.
I keep telling myself that I'm not supposed to love you.
That's why you hold her close.
But here I am.

Heavy hearted
I'm scared that I love you.
I don't want to take your happiness.
But I want to take away your pain.
laugh through your tears.
Even though its all said and done.
You're the one who holds my heart.

I keep telling you not to miss me.
But you still think of me.
Sometimes
I keep telling you not to love me.
I'm too dangerous.
But there you are.

Holding onto a battle you'll never win.
You want to be happy.
but with happiness is new pain.
you're heart isn't done healing from the last time.
And I'm still the one who broke it.

We constantly live in a fantasy where nothings changed.
Its our only comfort.
Nothing bad happens there.
Only love.
a play ground for our hearts,
Where our dreams for the future are still alive.
before our hands turned to ice.