because in my dreams
you were hit by a moving car
mauled by a large animal
died a million violent deaths

And yet

I still find myself woken up
heart pounding against my ribs
inconsolably sobbing to your demise
utterly and completely terrified

Because deep down

I know

That hate
is not the lost of love
indifference is

Hate is the malevolent version of love
like how a blackhole
is nothing more but a dead star