I don't want to see you And for reasons other than what one expects It's not that I don't want to be in your presence It's not that I don't want to hear your voice Or look into your eyes It's different It scares me, you see I'm scared you'll see those imperfections I try to hide Those illogical moments The lines around my eyes And my smile Making me less I'm scared to be less in your mind Have the lustre worn down by crushing realities I'm old I feel a weight of world that I can't explain to you I feel worn out So thin Stretched dry and brittle I'm scared you'll see And be scared in turn That one you placed so softly On such a broken pedestal Would fall so far from your memory My fear etches more lines My heart breaks at my reflection For reasons I hope you understand I'll love you forever But I don't want to see you