To hold hope is a dangerous thing Memories and dreams lacking colour, living in the glint of light in tears for brief, and painful seconds as they fall only to be absorbed by my skirts Each holding false hope in secret things, bound to a twisted finger of cruel fate I hide my face from light and sight as I breathe life into shadow figures of Once was, wasn't, and will never be Undecided if reality is dreamt up by a cruel child who derives its pleasure by pulling legs from lady bugs and wings from Butterflies And being the escapist that I am I play out my grey dreams in the fake lives of a family I seem to have imagined And drown the rest in flowers and filth