In the quiet spaces between words
I missed you
I wonder futilely
I gasp for air
Sometimes The crush of you
Permeating the waking moments
In the spaces between tears
I breathe deep
Seek to control my shuddering chest
Make calm for a second
Then crash down as all the facets overwhelm
Dissolve in self contained loneliness
As I remember that
In the space between touches
Was where I dwelt
Connected yet not
Still this tether remained
I felt your joy
I felt that heavy sorrow in your chest
As if my own
But
In the spaces between text
your printed form says nothing
There is little of you but shields
deflection
Noise
Like understanding can be found in the junkies touch
The slide of *** filling a whole because
In the spaces between ***** is where you live
Using those as you think you're worth
You're a shadow
An avatar
A sad reflection of a man running
Seeking self by losing it
In the process losing me
And lumbering on
Steam-rolling life
With a "*******"
But a broken soul
And in those spaces I can still see you
I still miss what I thought you were
Now that you is no more
You were a dream
You are a phantasm
A glimmer of hope
Not to be trusted with anything as precious as my heart
Not to be given any more of this countenance
This time
No more
I seek those expanses to give me focus
I breathe in this lonely path surrounded by love
Surrounded by those who will fight
for me
When at my most weak
Who love me
Not pay lip service to
Who believe in me because they believe they're worth me
With these I'll stand
So at some stage in those spaces
I'll have peace
And be free