What are you supposed to do When your worst fears Begin to come true?
I don't mean to sound self-loathing, But I warned you. This is what you get For loving the sick girl.
Please don't be surprised Or confused. I warned you, And I tried, before, to give you multiple outs. Whether it be by pushing you away, Or explicitly explaining How I am, and what usually happens.
I can't make this feeling of worthlessness Go away just because I want it to.
I can't pretend I'm confident when There are just so many things I'm terrible at.
And I can't just be better, Stop being anxious, Stop being depressed, Stop not focusing, Stop being manic or dysphoric.
It takes more than wanting to be better.
It takes a lot of work.
And while I know I can't do it on my own, I understand if you don't want to help. Or if you can't.
But this is what you signed up for When you started loving the sick girl.
And personally, I feel bad for you. I know that if I had the choice, I wouldn't want to stick around either.