i was wrong
i am sorry
the thing i have done
can you forget?
i am dying, love
i love you deeply
i miss you gravely
i ask for your consideration to accept my heart's apology
as i am down on my trembling knees i reach out to your soft hands
can you please look into my pouring eyes?
i am asking you for mercy
will you give me grace?
my mouth dries as i continue to beg to you
for you but your ears are shut
open your broken heart for me once again, love
i kiss your now cold fingertips then the red that lined your wrists
forgive me, love
forgive me
i did this to you
they look at me with pity and disgust in their eyes
i did not care
how can i not when you are here in front of me?
with your eyes closed?
if only i could turn back time
i would never commit the sin i did
but you are gone now
i am but too late
should i close my eyes too?
if somehow they opened will you be there waiting for me?
in the afterlife i will surely find you
and ask you this
will you take me back?
i wonder what your answer will be
but until then, love
hang in there
wait for me
i will leave you for a moment
i am on my way home
i held the same thing you used to decorate your wrist with red
how did you do it?
i went in the tub and ran the water
these red lines hurt love
did you undergo the same pain?
i am sorry
i did not know it hurt this much
did the lights also blurred, love?
surely the lights here are dimming
i smile to myself, love
i smile widely
soon
soon, love
i will see you
will you wait for me?
for one last time
with your smile in my mind
**i love you