I am 50 shades of an emotional wreck Everything in my life is tumbling down, what the heck I don't know what to do, who to turn to or what to say But no matter how hard I try the pain just won't go away I am so sick of being hurt from the same person over and over again It's really killing me inside. When will the pain end? What hurts the most is knowing that he moved on Yet I'm still here all alone, reminiscing about what we had for so long The sad part is that I actually feel like I deserve this I mean not fully but I mean, I wasn't perfect Oh mehn, I have to get the negative thoughts out of my head Before I explode and cry all night in bed This just doesn't feel right How could the boy that I loved forget about me just like that? I mean, I know I wasn't perfect but I thought we had something special But what can I do now except get over it And accept the fact that he ain't ****.