Heart crushing memories
heart crushing lies
I barely can write
as the tears overflow my eyes
pouring out

How do I get this feeling to go?
How do I feel better?

The feeling will fade for awhile
than
it will return
tugging at me
harder than before
tugging at my eyes, my heart & my soul
This feeling is painful
it makes want to dig myself a hole & stay for the rest of my days

I don't feel like life should feel this way
This tugging pain is binding me
blinding me
It just covers the joy I could have & makes me want to hide

The hole I want to dig
is just to get away
just to feel a little bit of sanity

The feeling leaves than comes back pushing me to the edge
every time it comes back
it comes back more intense
more real
Pushing me closer to the edge
Closer to letting go