I look at myself and don't like what I see. My disgusting body stares back at me. I try different things to make me a little thinner. Like purging myself or skipping my dinner. The voice inside my head tells me I'll never be beautiful unless I'm thin, so I start counting calories until I feel attractive in my own skin. Every food I eat is no longer tasteful. It's just more calories entering my body and makes me feel shameful. I hope to someday to be the thin girl hiding underneath my fat. The girl that can touch her stomach and it would be flat.