my heart never aches for hearts ive never known
selfishness is something ive learnt to live with
holding apathy close like a positive trait
like loneliness is a medal to be proud of
but i know its not

fear tastes like metal on skin
and ive grown to hide things in plain sight just to avoid letting anyone in
my mind is like a broken computer
loading
loading
never letting
neverending
forever pending

supposing that these things are irrelevant
id bet on letting people i love go
though id rather have feeling gone
then being alone

if He could only spare a minute of time
to listen to my damp shoes on pavement
or the way i never seem to look someone in the eye
maybe then
he'd show a sign

perhaps the fighting ceases where another war begins