Oct 2016
You can spend days, weeks, or months talking to someone -
but in the end, you don't really know them at all.
They can be the first thing you think of in the morning and the last thing that crosses your mind before you fall asleep -
but in the end, you don't really know them at all.
They can make you smile when they send you pictures of what they're doing throughout the day, what sights they're seeing, or how sweet they look when it's cold outside and they're bundled up -
but in the end, you don't really know them at all.
In the end, they can invite you over for dinner and a movie and it'll be the first time you meet. It'll feel nice when they hold you in their arms and carefully trail a single finger down your lower back.
It'll feel nice when they pull you closer and kiss you, your socked feet trailing down their leg.
It'll feel confusing when they pull away and tell you to follow them to their bedroom.
It'll feel strange when they shut and lock the door behind them, gesturing towards their bed.
It'll feel uncomfortable when they climb on top of you and take your pants off. Your underwear is thrown away, too.
"No ***. Okay?"
It won't feel okay when they *******, regardless of what you've said. Who knew a ceiling could look so interesting in the dark?
It won't feel good when you lay there and realize you're being used. Who knew my first time would be so ******* memorable?
You can spend a long time believing that the world is perfectly defined and that the people within it are as raw as the sunsets we witness everyday.
But the sun never truly disappears. Our eyes are fooled by the coming of night, the arrival of the moon and the stars. Those never truly disappeared, either.
They were just hiding in plain sight.
You can spend a long time believing that you know someone, that everything they truly are is within reach -
but then you would just be fooling yourself.
People are not sunrises and sunsets.
They're everything in between -
dreams, fears, locked doors, eyes squeezed tight, and a smiling face in the dark.
In the end, you need to wake up.
but in the end, you don't really know them at all.
They can be the first thing you think of in the morning and the last thing that crosses your mind before you fall asleep -
but in the end, you don't really know them at all.
They can make you smile when they send you pictures of what they're doing throughout the day, what sights they're seeing, or how sweet they look when it's cold outside and they're bundled up -
but in the end, you don't really know them at all.
In the end, they can invite you over for dinner and a movie and it'll be the first time you meet. It'll feel nice when they hold you in their arms and carefully trail a single finger down your lower back.
It'll feel nice when they pull you closer and kiss you, your socked feet trailing down their leg.
It'll feel confusing when they pull away and tell you to follow them to their bedroom.
It'll feel strange when they shut and lock the door behind them, gesturing towards their bed.
It'll feel uncomfortable when they climb on top of you and take your pants off. Your underwear is thrown away, too.
"No ***. Okay?"
It won't feel okay when they *******, regardless of what you've said. Who knew a ceiling could look so interesting in the dark?
It won't feel good when you lay there and realize you're being used. Who knew my first time would be so ******* memorable?
You can spend a long time believing that the world is perfectly defined and that the people within it are as raw as the sunsets we witness everyday.
But the sun never truly disappears. Our eyes are fooled by the coming of night, the arrival of the moon and the stars. Those never truly disappeared, either.
They were just hiding in plain sight.
You can spend a long time believing that you know someone, that everything they truly are is within reach -
but then you would just be fooling yourself.
People are not sunrises and sunsets.
They're everything in between -
dreams, fears, locked doors, eyes squeezed tight, and a smiling face in the dark.
In the end, you need to wake up.
