I have thought about suicide probably More times than I should have, And I've lingered between busy streets probably More often than I ought to, Unclicking my seat-belt Dancing on the edge of "Should I?" and "When?"
I've emptied orange bottles, prescriptions in hand, Shuffling the white capsules from mouth to palm probably More than a dozen times, And I've lingered on the idea of "Now?" and "Here?"
I've held myself under bath water, white knuckles clenched and lungs on fire Probably More than my body wishes Humming to myself, "A few more seconds." and "Keep going."