My Walk with Wires

I thought I was done,

Crawling away from devilish thoughts,

But they creep back in,

Twisting my brain into knots.

I thought I was done running away,

It was the first rain of May,

The numbness of my words and my love?

Procaine makes the numbness infinite.

I’m walking on thin wires,

My eyes roll,

Why am I not moving?
Is it my excavation of life, or just my flat tires?

What lead to this curse,

My life isn’t found in an expensive purse,

It’s not found in fables,

It’s found in the elegance of what gets worse.

There’s a forest,

It’s whispering your name,
Honestly, it’s screaming about my shame,

Is it my heart, or is it me that’s to blame?

I punch these mirrors,

You stare,

The ideas in my head?

 You made them so unfair.

White flashes,

Blue flashes,

Red flashes,

Broken blood flowing out of these gashes.

Did I fall,

Was it real?

The jagged wires collapsed?

I’m navigating away from these traps…?

I’m awake now,

Only a little bit of pain is here,

What did I dream of?

Was it about March 17th again?

I only need that eternal love,

I didn’t need the so called beauty of a dove,

You scream out,

I call back, but with eternal resentment.

We all need a little more love,

But some of us have to earn it by walking,

Walking on thin wires,

Because it’s a testament of your true heart.