To be raised in dysfunction is to expect failure. It is to expect every mans words to be rough and spiteful spilling from their lips like venom. To be raised in a fantasy is to fear ones own reality. It is to become acquainted to forms of love being shown as slammed doors and drunken slurs. Gas lighting women to wonder if one day they will breathe or step the wrong direction It is to expect everyone who claims that they "love you" to belittle you to strip you of your identity and your sanity like ***** clothes tainted by the fumes of their words. And in the gaslighting, which burned very bright, you would have enough of a glow to paint the roses red. Perfectly red, everyday they would have to be red. Because to be raised by you Means blood, and we are blood. But that does not mean, I have to bleed, for you.