and in that moment, i thought i was over you. that moment when i was kissing another guy, you weren't on my mind. but now, you never ******* leave. my eyes strain from staring at my phone, reading our old messages. i'm already sick, but the endless tears and migraines are making me sicker. i thought i could work without you by my side, just like i did before but this time it was different. i depended on you for months but you slowly crept out of my life. there are points when i think i'm over you but i see something and all of a sudden, you're right back in my mind again. it's been about a month since you broke up with me, but every single nights since then i've been getting ****** up so i'm able to forget i miss you. sometimes i wish i could die so i'd never see your stupid ******* face again but i know if i go through with it, i'm stuck with you forever.

and recently, i haven't been eating, drinking, sleeping because i know if i do, it'll remind me of you.