My mind is scattered as I stare at the wide expanse above
Wondering many things at once in a split second
Debating deeply how much everything else would come out
Arguing over myself how everything will fall down

Like papers in the wind my thoughts soar high
Up and up they go into the midnight sky
Fluttering aimlessly and screaming silent whispers
Creasing and folding to the might of the relentless air

My eyes water as my mind swims in a pool of thoughts
Grasping for words and ideas I could put together
A raft of poetry or phrase to save my tiny speck of a life
As tears ran down with every second  I stare at the flickering hope

Deep withing my thoughts a beast awakens and bellows
A tsunami of emotions surging past my wall of lies
Tearing down every brick of pretentiousness away
Washing ashore fragments of my self-loathed insecurities

So here I am with my face to the empty night sky
Staring hard as I could for a star to swoosh by
My mind pondering on fears of my own future
Like papers in the wind myself I torture