i feel weird again i lament i feel mortal i am aware of my mortality for a split second i feel strange i feel like flesh and bones no soul just muscles that could rip and tear and shred and be broken and death i could die for a second i have a heightened awareness of this fact and it feels strange my tongue starts to tingle mortality i feel my body decay from within i feel like dying my heart feels weird it feels like t is burdensome to continue beating. it feels heavy if that is even possible i just don't know what is real and what i feel i am confused and lost and i clutch my chest feel the warmth i'm still alive right and i just don't i just can't i simply don't know how to explain what I feel i just feel like flesh and bones and nothing more.