I cant stand to see the guilt come across an actor's eyes as he portrays a life of a cheater.

Days past were I am reminded of my own betrayals and I must look away.

Is this what it's like to change?

Has my sleep become a pipe dream?

Has my alcoholic induced ******* antics came and gone so early in my life, where I cant find the dullest, and easiest scape goats to sooth my pain and guilt?

I'm left wondering what did i gain?
Take it from me, the grass is not greener.