I haven't been in love for what seems like too long
I've fallen in love with the sound of silence ringing where affection stands
In the absence of it all, I feel a numb ache of sorts, clawing for attention
And I start to wonder if those who told me I rely on relationships were right

I used to fear this feeling like a child in the dark,
But I'm used to the lack of light now
And if anything, I'm afraid to see fear seep back into my view for the fact that it might be bigger than I think
The fear of the unknown is the only fear I've known for some time
If I'm not careful, I might flood into too many feelings
And slip in the darkness I've learned to stand still in

If I tiptoe lightly around the edges of my mind
If I stay out of the light I've kept inside
Will I be safe(r)?
Will I be dry?

I know I haven't been calm for some time
But I've been moving so fast that I've learned not to look twice at how I'm actually reacting
I've been so scared, but only behind the curtain
And I've hidden so well, I hope I never come out