Thank you all
For showing me
on my return
how much you love me


But don’t ask
how does it feel
I can not say
whether I felt anything

Believe me
it was not defensive
I attacked…I killed…and killed
though
never intend to

Couldn’t remember
how many bodies fell down
Could not feel
coldness of blood on my hands
May be because
Blood on my veins
was at its maximum hotness

But when two watery eyes
soaked mine
I took her in my arms
……..and felt
A dead stone started breathing again


I felt sorry…..
For all whom I offered breathless life
Please forgive me

Oh God
If you give me a life again
make me soldier again
but
I wish to die
Saving breathe of others
Not taking it away

-----A Soldier