Sitting together cross legged Our naked bodies just inches away Lungs breathing in the same stale air Hearts beating at a slightly erratic pace Mine vehemently moving forward Determined foolishly to make the most Of the possible slipping final days
Looking up My eyes gaze upon his body One I believed to be the epitome of beauty Stopping finally at his face I sigh with resign A lone tear making its way down my scarred cheeks It’s not fair I think This possibly being our last time For I doubt I’d let him stay once it was over
So I look back at that face With a determined promise Memorizing every line and curve From the soft yet strangely spikey hair Wild eyebrows that tell stories of his travels Warm eyes overflowing with love For a foolish dying girl A nose with a shadow of a joker Hiding in its contours Deep dark lips that whisper my name A prayer for him to hope for more time
This face with its sleepless dark circles Warm browness and scraggy beard I hold in my weak spidery fingers I want this to be last memory Before the darkness engulfs me So when I open my eyes each day You’ll be by my side no matter what I think with a childish hope
My words become incoherent As weakness seeps swiftly into my body Reducing my strong resolve to dust I fall back into an ocean of tears On your arms cannot pull me out of They take you away and strap me in Only the cold pinch of a needle Having the power to soothe my wrecked soul
With a struggle I open my eyes Barely managing it for a few moments Disappointed with plane whiteness I give in to the awaiting darkness They wheel me out to my doom The decision had been made The papers signed in finality With a stroke of ink they had decided my fate
Wheeling me out to sterile cruelty I drift away helplessly As inhuman white beings surround me Slicing my body open Now finally with inked permits To take away a part of my soul Stealing all the colours and faces from me And subjecting me to an infinite depth of black
My body survived The cancer had finally died Yet I felt no proud survivor’s strength Only the hollow emptiness of this new dark world I could think of Voices called out of the dark Warm arms reaching out to hold me But their faces no longer could appear They all were the same to my darkness
Until I heard him walk in again His quiet orders for others to leave Rang through my ever inquisitive ears His soft rustles confused my mind Until I felt his warm body engulf me His lips whispering his prayer Calling my fiery soul back from the depths
My sightless eyes felt a surprising wet And from the dark depths a face appeared One I feared had forever left me With a cry my spidery fingers held on Drinking in thirstily his warmth My mind now singing into the darkness He’s back And in that terrified moment I knew it was not the end
With a determined **** I pushed my body off the comforts of my bed Arm reaching out uncertainly for a support With my weak hands engulfed in his Legs gingerly touching the bare tiled floors I jumped off And took my first step Towards a renewed life