I remember when the fireflies danced in the night When hearts grew warmer, as coldness sprouted to life. When a single sign of affection brewed a storm inside of me and I pursued the glimpse of happiness. I remember when mom commanded me to do the unspeakable as dad stared blankly into silent static, as my screams pierced the humid summer night. When destructive thoughts seized my mind I tried to make them flee, but they refused. as rejection dug into my flesh, running, and running, and running. I remember the endless tears, broken relationships, and the grip of fear. Fear of the unknown, the future, people, and love. Love. What was it? Would I ever find it? And would I ever find myself? I remember when you said I was the strongest person you knew. I tried to comprehend your words, but I couldn't see strength. Instead, a young girl with big dreams in a world crumbling to pieces. So I searched to find myself. I remember when I started viewing myself in a positive way. As I repelled the negative judgement I had forced upon myself. And started finding my values, who I was, and who I wanted to be. And maybe, just maybe I could succeed.