I must say that today was a good day
I kept a smile on my face
but now it's night
Out come all the feelings I have tried to fight
Bombarding me with their essence
Clawing their way inside my head
Searching hard at my wall
Built around them, to keep me from my fall
Looking to find a breach
I must have one, for out some have leaked
the not good enough's, strong enough's, smart enough's, pretty enough's
for you
All my smiles vanish from the day
Gone like the suns rays
My insecurities flit about
Teaming my mind
Filling it with doubt
The crack must have become a crevice
A true breach in my defenses
For here I am laying in bed
*thinking how to just end