I have cried a thousand tears. I am now dry You said you wanted me to hurt You have done your aim For my love for you will not cease But yours for me now, in the breeze I am now but a husk A shell of what I was For I have let you destroy me You broke down my walls So long ago I felt secure with you guarding them Then you turned And I am now empty Your love for me Now forever in the breeze
And her tears fall down like a waterfall from green eyes Chest aching in pain unsurpassed As she sits on her couch No pictures on the wall Cold metal art instead She realizes She is truly alone No one there to comfort in her time of need She let so many things take away from her No friends No family She is truly alone crying waterfalls
Here we go again I knew it was to good to be true I was feeling happy Smiling more Laughing, loving Then out of nowhere WHACK! No reason No real trigger The old words flow in.. "you're not good enough" "he must have someone else" "you'll never work again" "might as well just die" "can't even take care of your kids" "your whole life is a lie" My heart races My tears threaten to fall I don't know why It's just there I can't turn it off GOD! Please save me!!!
This is a real problem in many lives. We can't just turn it off. Unfortunately, it controls us. We can take medicine, but it's only a bandaid. Love us, remind us we are worth it. That our fears may seem real, but you are there to protect us. Please don't judge us. Stay with us. We always need a hand...
It would have been so easy to keep going straight Not take the turn left Straight….a mere 13 miles and I'd be at your door Straight….you'd have to face me Straight…..tell me where I went wrong 13 miles, so close, eternity away drawing a deep breath thru the tears I turn left This road….11 miles and I'll be at my door This road….face to face with myself This road…..to question what I did wrong This road…..internal interrogation to play with my demons 11 miles, so close, too fast Straight….I did not go Straight….
I'm sitting on my back porch Smoking a cigarette Looking at the stars Hazed out by smoke Oklahoma is burning Flames are all around Smells like a campfire Even in town Livestock are dead Running for the barren river Wildlife gone Majestic mountain lions Climbing in the burnt trees Only to die of smoke inhalation Oklahoma is burning River beds running dry Dear Lord above Give us rain Help us see an end to this nightmare Of Oklahoma burning
I don't think you understand. The way my chest tightens. There's a vice holding back the tears and it makes it so hard to breathe. this incredible pain and emptiness vying for the space. How my mind screams at me. The part of me that isn't like this is trapped in there. Banging on her cell walls begging to be let out again. the Monster has taken over. It's ******* the life right out of me. I don't think straight. I can't see clearly. All lines are blurred. Every look is suspicious. every text some other woman. This Monster is controlling my mind. Having me read between lines that aren't there. And the pain... Oh God the pain!! I don't want to die, but I just want the pain to STOP! I need help putting this monster back in its cage.....
Her tears roll down her face As grains of sand off an eroding beach Falling into the abyss Of her pillow, the ocean The counter ticking away attempting to keep up Unable to do so "Enough!" he yells Unable to take her sadness anymore He reaches into her heart Trying to cut away the black But he is unable Every piece he removes Another takes its place And her tears continue *to fall down her face
I want to lose myself In between the pages See fae and dragons In my mind's eye Feel loss and love All in an hour Become someone else Feel the weight of a crown Have the wind whip my hair As I dive into a forest See the greenest of greens The bluest of blues Escape from reality Delve into another I want to lose myself **on the words of writer
The words were failed said Leaving my heart an ache Mind blowing with possibilities My soul crying in disbelief And true to my nature is I make excuses For words left unsaid Defending you to my own heart My mind screaming "Is not lost, his heart!" The sun now gives way Attempting to rid the night's agony My heart still aches With words left unsaid I pray today My heart be stilled
Who is this woman staring back at me There is something different about her If you look just right, you can see her teen self a childlike quality still But then it's gone Replaced with one who is poised Who has been thru **** and back Stronger than she ever was subtle grey streaking her auburn hair Eyes wise yet scared, scarred But there is a light One that has been absent for so long It is now there *it has returned home
I smell him on the edge of a storm When the sky is pregnant with electricity The thunder resonates thru As though he is speaking to me The whisper of the wind His promise of love His scent of the earth and water Envelopes me when the rain falls So when I am without him On a stormy night My soul cries in loneliness I cannot touch the storm Only have brief caresses of his soul
Fingers feel soul sighs Swords ****** Into the depth you go Begging for more Barriers melt away Windows open amber in glasses swirl Inhales of the smoke Dreams become reality Whispers ******* Calling to the other souls collide With a mournful *whiskey lullaby
The cicadas scream there mating song Courage runs thru me I'm gonna tell him I am The conversation has lulled Perfect time I'm gonna say it I'm gonna scream it to him "Babe, I know you love me. I know you tolerate my children for me. But babe, my baby is sick. He's sick in the head. He..." I'm gonna do it I'm gonna tell him the rest of that sentence My mouth opens The words begging to come out It's as though they know me Know my fear of saying it aloud Aloud to someone who isn't... The cicadas crescendo their mating scream We are deaf to anything else The words die before they exit my mouth But one day they won't be there Summer will be gone "Closed for the season" sign plastered in the sky "Thanks for staying! Come back again next year!" That's what it says Yeah, that's what'll happen The cicadas silence Fall will come Along with the words that sit Sit at the edge of my tongue The reason I started smoking a pack a day again Why I'm asked "why are you so pensive?" "Do you really want to know?" I'll tell you, then you'll go screaming from me "An abomination! That's what it is!" The cicadas stop me But only for now I will tell In the dark When there's no light to comfort you Whlie I'm breaking That's when I'll tell you Don't leave me. Stay This is when I'll need you most When the cicadas have sung their last screaming **** When the green leaves turn orange when I tell you what he....
whispers Calling softly Caressing my soul Shivers race down my spine Heart imploding whispers Eyelash kisses Cascading down my body Soft sighs from my body whispers Tell me more Sing it upon my being Raise me to new heights Don't let me fall Let your whispers* catch me
Tonight we watch a rival to match all rivals One of blood **** and rainbows These two have been at it since the beginning of birth. Forever at the others throat. Let's meet our competitors!!!
In the blue corner weighing in at 114#'s with a reach as long as her career She's the stomper of dreams, the instigator of fights, it's IIINNNNSSEECCCUUURRIIITTIIEESS!!!!
And in the red corner also weighing in at 114#'s with a reach half an inch shorter She's the rainbows after the storm, the swell of joy in your chest, the giver of forgiveness, it's HHHAAPPPIIIINNNEESSS!!!
The referee for tonight's match is neutral. Let's hear what he has to say to the opponents
"Alright ladies. We discussed rules in the locker room. Hitting below the belt is illegal. The heart is frowned upon but in the game. Let's fight as fair as possible"
"I saw that shady, did you? That gleam in insecurities eyes when neutral said the heart. That woman has it out for happiness "
"I did see that fair. Happiness' eyes got round as saucers. She knows that insecurity is gonna pull a fast one. Want to bet that it's 'he's not really in love'?"
"I don't know shady, I'd hate to think she'd pull one so low. He did just profess his love to her"
"She could pull that 'he's still in love with the missus. That he really doesn't want to let go' "
TO BE CONTINUED....
If you know the WWE or UFC...use his voice
******!! Make me feel as though I should not have fears! You say "I love you", but do you truly mean it?
I sleep tonight upon bated breath In hopes I shall wake on the morrow With eyes wide open and mindful rest Secrets to become no more As truths are laid down Set in open door Light to come over darkness creep the sun shall not run Tomorrow secrets unleashed Hide no more sun Run no longer to west Giver of light to the moon Lay down now in her breast the world has flipped It's ciphers have been read So upon the morrow I shall wake As tonight I sleep once more Upon bated breath take
One by one The petals fall From the heart of man Taking with them The sun and shine Leaving a desolate land Their sweet fragrance Fermenting in arid desert Where noc is ruler Green grass obsolete Dry as cotton This heart of sand Rain doesn't quench This thirst This ache It cleans nothing Leaves only a muddy hand A soul that cries With eyes now dry A hand to which No one holds A permanent desert Where roses die And grass not grow This barren Heart of sand
To let go of one you love is a death without a death. Stay strong my friend.
I want to read you My poetry tonight So tell me what it will be Tell me what your mind's eye Wants to see Would you like something Scary and dark Or maybe one That'll give you suicidal thoughts How about something Happy and carefree Like children laughing Playing tag and yelling you can't catch me Or how about Carefree and bright Inspirational Make you ponder this so called life Maybe one Of unrequited love Or one that'll make you swoon Think past the gentle hug So tell me your poison I'd love to hear Cause I want to read you My poetry tonight Have you feel my years
You're winning you know Pushing her away She's tiring of this fight So many times She's been pushed away in life She doesn't give up easily If she sees something There for to fight She believes in you An "us" and a "we" She's still clinging on To that so called dream But she's losing her grip Her will giving Starting to slip You're winning you know So stop this pushing Or tell her goodbye Don't make her look a fool She's been there Too many times
Kiss her like you mean it Even if you have to lie Just kiss her like that One more time She will see thru it See the truth behind the lie But it will bring a ghost of a smile As she remembers How it was Once upon a time
Each time you don't answer Everytime reassurance isn't given Her soul tears With each kiss Every soft word Stiches piece it back But lover of hers It is becoming harder The balance of hurt and kind Is not equal The edges of her soul Are becoming thinner Harder to piece together They are fraying From all that you do That is malign
Spare that soft word!! Rid her of her insecurities! For you are pushing her away, and soon, away she will be...
Inside a square box So airy and light My children laughing and playing Everyone dressed in white Then the sound of laughter stops A dimness in the box Slowly everyone leaves Taking the light Darkness begins its reign My best steps up Looks me straight in the eye She then turns and goes Taking with her, her light The man I believe is with me Turns to me and smiles But it is not pleasant It is feral, wild He whispers words, turns and goes "Never was" hits me in the gut Lights are gone A black hole is now my box
She loses herself When she looks into his eyes A vast storm in the universe Holds her spellbound Mesmerized The collapsing of stars The birth of new All in his eyes She has the VIP view Entranced in the darkness The planets play A series of falling stars Each a wish from her Praying one will come true She dares not look away Intense is this night She sees dancing in his eyes She yearns for a kiss To intensify the heavens she sees Captured in his gaze Mesmerized
I see the cardiologist today My heart has been off Instead of the normal Thump Thump It's been Thththththump I thought it was from This new exciting us But I feel sorrowful maybe I missed a few pills The ones that keep the smile on my face But my heart It's going erratic It's doing it when I'm not with you Becomes worse when I'm around you you are bad for my health Thththththump There it goes again My heart is broke Even with you staying I see the cardiologist today...
I do have heart problems. Hopefully a clean bill of health today. But it has gotten worse since we have become an us....
I look into the mirror Trying to see who I am Who I have become lost distorted There is a shadow One of my former self I catch fleeting glances Of this shadow I attempt to capture it Place it back on me For where all the world can see She is in there Young Free spirit No ties to anything or anyone Struggling to break free I can hear her Screaming, pleading Feel her Attempting to re-emerge Through the distortion *that life has made me