I know I love this girl so much & care so much about her when I feel like breaking down when something happens to her.

Why do bad luck or stressful things happen to her?

God, why would you plan a stressful life for a beautiful girl like her?

Why would you plan a life like this for someone?

God, I know you put me in her path for a reason & I tend to take that challenge.

Did you put me in her path so she can have someone like me to keep her alive?

Did you put me in her path so she can have someone as caring as me to make her smile?

To make her day better?

To show her that not everyone is the same and that there is someone out there that wont give up on her?

Someone who will show her love and care?

I don’t know your plan but I plan to stay where you put me

To stay there for her

To love her

To care for her

To keep her alive and to show her im there for her no matter what unlike people who treat her like trash.

 

God, can I ask you for a favor?

Can you watch over my girl for me when im not able to? Can you give us both hope for us to be together?

Please…..

IM BEGGING YOU….

Give her strength to hold on

I want to be with her…

I want to be the reason shes happy and alive and the one person she can turn to when she needs me…

 

When shes happy

Im happy

When shes sad

Im sad

When shes stressed or doesn’t feel good because of her anxiety attacks

I feel like breaking down because I wish she didn’t have to go through this ****

I never felt like this for anyone

I just felt sorry for other people and hope they get better

But for my girl….

Its like I can feel her pain even though I never felt it before myself….

I just want to break down and cry because  I WANT TO BE THERE FOR HER!! I WANT TO ACTUALLY BE THERE TO GIVE HER A HUG AND MAKING SURE SHE DON’T HAVE TO GO THROUGH EVERYTHING ALONE even though she tells me that she prefers to go through it alone….

I know I CANT fix everything but I CAN be there for her…..

I want to be the person that will take all her dark smoke she has holding inside from her depression….

I want to be the one to put light and hope inside her and let her know she will be alright…

 

She told me she wants to start new once she graduates high school

She wants to start a new life without the negative people that brought her down to this…

& I want to be the person to be there when she starts new

I want to be in her new life making her happy….

If I lose her, I wont know what to do anymore…

Its scary….

Because I have hope for us and want the best for her

The best for both of us…

My world might just end if I lose her

So I pray every night that we will have a good life together

Because its what I want

Its what I want for the both of us

For god’s sakes

Please…………