these will be the things i remember when i'm sad and need something to remind me that theres more to this life or when i'm staring into space and can't hold back a burst of happiness or when i'm laying in bed with a racing mind of how things are finally coming together and thinking of how happy and content i am
but also when i'm happy and my mind brings me back to missing you or when i'm unable to put my thoughts together and have to swallow back tears or when i'm consumed in a mountain of blankets late at night still unable to stop shaking and avoid the numb cold looming over me and my heart is pounding in my chest as i remember how happy and content i used to be