It all started The day I departed Toward our Winchester apartment The farthest we had been apart Since we started talking I painfully remember You & tip (our dog) were hit by a car Nobody was injured Only I fell apart
Inside I lost it and felt nauseous Thinking the most horrible and awful thoughts What if it all went wrong and the sad story of my life had just continued on This insane belief that those I held close would soon be gone
My selfishness prevented seeing how it effects you I will never get over the fact I wasn't there to protect you
Reliving the seconds I was breathless Feeling so helpless Instead of confessing Post traumatic stress rapidly manifested to manic depressive and verbal aggression Directed at my best friend
It's like the Marine in me Will wear anything but a heart on his sleeve I'm still greiving I can't believe it was me that decided to leave Even despite Nivea's "25 reasons"