I don't know how to help myself, where do I even start? I could write paragraphs of words, enough to fill miles of the open world. but these words don't help to change, they only help to vent out thoughts. When will the real change happen? there is so much to see and do... yet it feels pointless on my own. I can't seem to grasp it, repeating routines, how can anyone be satisfied. I need to meet more people, I dont know where to start, where to go... Just completely stuck.