I've worked so hard for a couple of times but i'm still not contented. how i wish one day all those dreams will come true!!! & im not gonna work my *** into a factory work cause -,- i am so tired.... i dont wanna be with them who won't be happy in their lives cause it really ***** that it hurts too much. you stuck in a bottom of sea where you can't get out from it & its really sad! really really...it traps you into a corner. it is really devastating. you end up being so busy that you also forgot to look up with yourself and ask if i am satisfied on what i've been doing this whole time of my life?

maybe i'll try a little bit harder and i pray that you'll guide me to my next journey. I will truly make it this time cause i wanna fulfill this long lost soul in me.