You should be able to touch the shadows Without losing yourself in them You should line the edges in white marker so you don't miss it The insistence of darkness and the pervasive Void in your heart, just listen When she told you, you were the only hope The only witness left Girls like her don't lie Don't want for your confusion They are the leaders She could have been the matriarch If she had a few more years to heal But she embraced the shadows at the foot of the bed Not even able to scream It's okay, it's perfect, she's in the arms of her first love Not able to breathe Here you are, the years lined on your eyes And between your fingertips Cradling the difference in the shades The lightness you can't bear to be Justice for your wrongs You try and find yourself no less a creature You missed the transformation! You're a monster now! You feel sickness It's in all of your bones and blood and nobody Will dare relieve you of the ache No amount of distance changed anything And he was the last hope you had So you killed each other and you lived together But not even shared bloodshed Could heal the mess you made Between your birth and the disaster you braved
I hate this but i'm keeping it up for nostalgia's sake. maybe i won't hate it when i'm 80 please don't judge me