it was fast and hard
the way i fell for you
i barely had time to think
and suddenly you were
all i thought about
and all i experienced

you were
every nerve ending
every cell in my body
every heartbeat
every drop of blood
every tear
every sigh of pleasure
every gasp of pain
every cut
every moment of every day

i couldn't wait to breath you out
to release you from my lungs
like toxic smoke
but you linger
like a haze around my head
making me foggy
and sad
and regretful

please just let me
quit
recover
move on
be whole again