Aw yes the blood flowing through my veins My beating heart that comes to a end I stand staring at what I thought was love Then I look around and all I see is blood I smirk then smile Knowing your time has come. If only you knew what you could become So yes the blood that's flowing through our veins Can be lost With a simple cut of a knife You have to ask Do I truly want this? Yet when you see every one bend down You come to horrendous thought Everyone looks but no one sees The pain that's inside of me One heart sticks out You contemplate Can I make that heart stay? One month six days Then you feel a cut You said you promises A promises you broke Know we go on with life Like nothing ever happened But I feel it in the back of my mind The fact that maybe you could have been the one Then I remember the knife being turned I can't fall asleep without seeing your pretty face Yet I know when I'm not wanted I know when I have been tossed aside Just like a shot gun shell which the angel shot at me I fell in love And every calls it infatuation But I not infatuated My heart is still beating Though nobody cares My pain is still real Although everyone tells me theirs I can't breathe some nights Because all I smell I you You broke my soul and stabbed my heart Even though my heart is still beating I look around and see one thing The heart that stuck out Was the heart that broke mine My heart still beats And when its done I hope its because of something fun I dont want pain I dont want death I just want love Like the next person I want weirdos I want nerds I want people who make me feel good I want my heart to beat faster for someone Then someone to just say that We aren't good I want someone who loves me like I love them I want the perfect person But no one is perfect Yet when I see the smiling faces I realize I want what they have Someone to talk and laugh with Someone to share secrets Then I see the 1 month 6 days I flinch away I dont want a month and so days I want forever and always Yet it always out of my reach My first heart is gone I'm on to a second life I start at the placed I save And still couldn't get it right I smile and wave Even though I want to cry When I'm alone is finally The time the tears fall They couldn't have fallen they crashed Crashed through the dam And onto my cheeks Then I see the very bad thing Someone walks in The dam closes. I wipe away the tears I face the person She stands with frown on her face Short pretty hair and a glare that's not meant for me I blink she's still there She's come to haunt me now She's alive but I am still in love Then I look away I can't stand the sight I saw her in dreams mutilated But when she is fine and safe I can't stand it She broke me and she is still whole I just want to be whole The heart that beats is mine It's beats with a thud I imagine the day it stops Everyone stares at me I am the center of attention I dont want this I want freedom I have trapped my heart It howls to be free I get colder and push everyone away I snap in anger I bite and scratch Then I awake It was only a dream But the heart ache is real I look around and see my sisters They smile and laugh My brother is being rude like always Then I notice the shadow The shadow is me I hang in the background with my gloomy mood I get asked to do things I do them Then I remember when I was happier No has noticed that after she broke up with me I have been crawling back in my shell. I feel my heart thump. I smile It's not real No one knows the difference so its fine I pretend I could be a actor That or they choose not to confront But I put up a show Then I turn and run Because whats the point if all any one wants is someone to laugh at I sit down and think Am I really worth all this pain? I look up and spot a light I smile A actual smile One that makes my eyes light up. She has come to save me My grandma Jane I hop up and run to her Darling are you okay? I hear her ask No I'm not. My heart and soul have been broken. She smiles It will all get better The last thing she said before she disappeared I have hope The heart of mine is beating That's all I need to know everything happens for a reason. I'm in invincible now. I have knowledge I have my beating heart I walk out of the darkness and join the light My eyes light up and I smile more often The feeling of death moves away One month and six days are just numbers But these numbers have meaning I'm still alive and my heart is still beating Just because she broke my heart and soul Doesn't mean I can't be happy I have new knowledge I know how to live with someone who isn't interested I lay me head down and think *The beating heart I hear is mine and it's going strong.
Wrote this poem after finally having enough nerve. I hope you enjoy it.