it's like being that kid
at a candy store
they smile at me,
I flirt more
flatter them until
my mouth is sore.

it's like hide in seek
in the dark
not knowing whether you'll find
a teddy bear or shark
afraid is my heart.

I keep driving down dead ends
I keep swimming in sin,
I keep seeking out men,
yet I find no one, nothing,
not even a friend.