I commit myself to the homicide of my thought-flowers. I indulge in the **** - Killing my darlings for the sake of art and sanity. What a paradox. I have bloodied my hands with it even so.
No more love-lite poetry! No more adolescent chinks of the pseudo-heart! No more infantile fork-stabs at the plate of kid-intellectualism! No more Wikipedia pages on thoughts that can swallow computers whole!
I'm killing my darlings for the sake of art, for the sake of sanity - what a paradox. Blood is flowing.
I'm a murderer of ideas tonight - today I will write about many of life's very few truths. Like trees. Like soil. These are the only constants in mathematics. These are the identities.
In my garden, I reach out to crush an almost-crimson hibiscus. Petals squelching with skin and nectar - no perfume. The hibiscus roils, unliving.
Red pulpy mess; heart out of chest.
'**** your darlings. Your crushes, your juvenile metaphysics - none of them belong on the page.'