Lost I lay in my thoughts again, hoping you’d drown,
just so you could call on me to dive in and save you,
to dive in.

Hey, lost in my heart again, behold a clarity,
a clear, unbroken picture of the things that time could not repair,
a perfect tapestry of hopeless despair,
and you’re at the center, you are the cause.
I fight you in my dreams, I find you there in pieces,
And nothing’s as it seems, lessons taught without meaning.

What am I supposed to do when everything I put into you,
was everything I had? Now everything has gone again.
It’s a perfect dark.

Stitched across the flesh the thread of all my flaws connects the scars,
they glow with bitterness and restraint.
Some days are torture, some days are too much.

Wait, now follow me. Wait don’t, follow me.
Hold my hand as I make my descent.
Make my descent.

If I drown, will you dive in?
When I drown will you dive?
I’ve been drowning all along.