when the words they swore they would never speak
came spiraling out of their mouth,
dizzying your already unsteady mind?

when your veins twisted into the threads and seams of the sweater they gave you?

when you couldn't even gather the courage to tell yourself
that it would be okay?

when the tears cascading down your cheeks,
were beginning to float a boat with a white flag hoisted?

when your senses became null,
and you swore that you were just
a lonely apparition floating through the
troposphere?

*when you lost it all?